Welcome to my randomized study & miscellaneous thoughts about the Awesome God of the universe, who He is and what He wants us to be.

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What’s In a Name

Okay, so as I wrote before, I tend to view myself in terms of what I do or what I’ve done. But in order to be anchored, I need a perspective of myself that is unchanging by my situations, circumstances or actions. A perspective that sees all of me all the time. I need a “God-view” of myself. Which leads to the question, “What does He say about me?”

When studying this topic myself, I came across three very interesting passages in the Bible that really spoke to my heart about this issue. Following is a little of what I took away from this.

Named By God

Imagine being 99 years old with one young son and having God say that you’d be the father of many! At 99 years of age, Abram had another encounter with God. At that time, Abram had moved his household from his homeland of Ur on God’s word. Abram’s name means “exalted father” and was his name even before the birth of Ishmael when Abram was childless. During this encounter, God confirmed His covenant of blessings to Abram. God also renamed him to Abraham, meaning “father of many” or “father of a multitude.” God, who can see the beginning of time and the end knows what is around the corner in our lives. I take away from this that my faith is to be in what God has said about me and my future and not what I can see and perceive. Ephesians 3:14-15 says, “14 For this reason I kneel before the Father, 15 from whom his whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name.” My Father in heaven knows me and calls me by a name of His choosing. I desire to believe in what He calls me.
Genesis 17

Faithful & Blessed By God

The book of Daniel starts out with a very interesting account of four young men, kidnapped from Jerusalem and held captive by the king of Babylon which is current day Iraq. Young men of wealthy or noble birth were taken captive and trained to become employees of some sort to serve the king.

They were of the children of Judah, the royal tribe, and probably of the house of David, which had grown a numerous family; and God told Hezekiah that of the children that should issue from him some should be taken and made eunuchs, or chamberlains, in the palace of the king of Babylon. The prince of the eunuchs changed the names of Daniel and his fellows, partly to show his authority over them and their subjection to him, and partly in token of their being naturalized and made Chaldeans. Their Hebrew names, which they received at their circumcision, had something of God, or Jah, in them: Daniel—God is my Judge; Hananiah—The grace of the Lord; Mishael—He that is the strong God; Azariah—The Lord is a help. To make them forget the God of their fathers, the guide of their youth, they give them names that savour of the Chaldean idolatry. Belteshazzar signifies the keeper of the hidden treasures of Bel; Shadrach —The inspiration of the sun, which the Chaldeans worshipped; Meshach — Of the goddess Shach, under which name Venus was worshipped; Abed-nego, The servant of the shining fire, which they worshipped also. (from Matthew Henry’s Complete Commentary)

So, the Babylonians took these men, renamed them after their own gods and then attempted to feed them with items that were against God’s requirements for the Hebrew people. But Daniel 1 says, “8 But Daniel resolved not to defile himself with the royal food and wine, and he asked the chief official for permission not to defile himself this way. 9 Now God had caused the official to show favor and sympathy to Daniel,” So Daniel stood firm in his obedience to God, and God caused the official to look upon him with favor. And what was the result of Daniel’s obedience??? Verses 15-17 tell us the answer to that question. “15 At the end of the ten days they looked healthier and better nourished than any of the young men who ate the royal food. 16 So the guard took away their choice food and the wine they were to drink and gave them vegetables instead. 17 To these four young men God gave knowledge and understanding of all kinds of literature and learning. And Daniel could understand visions and dreams of all kinds.” So, I will lean upon God’s knowledge! Psalm 111:10 states, “The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom; all who follow his precepts have good understanding. To him belongs eternal praise.”

Though the world, fellow employees, family members or friends may say that I am one thing, I choose to listen to God and what He says I am, what I am becoming and eternally what He has already made me to be! I am a saint because He says so, His Son’s blood allowed it to be. If I act or believe any differently, I am contradicting God…and who do you think will win that argument? :-)
Daniel 1

Touched By God

Oh, how I want to me touched by God. Led by Him, guided by Him, used by Him. That’s probably not a new thought for many of us…throughout man’s history we’ve longed to restore, rebuild and regain the intimate relationship that was originally intended by God. The issue is that we’ve tried to get close to God on our own terms, in our own strength and methods. But He says, “There is a way that seems right to a man, but in the end it leads to death.” (Proverbs 14:12)

But another story in the Old Testament shows us that God can reach out and touch us and change us so that we’re never the same again. Found in Genesis, chapter 32, it’s a tale of Jacob. Jacob who connived with his mom to trick his nearly blind father and steal his brother’s inheritance. Jacob, who had to run off so his brother wouldn’t harm him. Jacob, who was tricked by his uncle Laban into first marrying the wrong daughter and then had to work as a herdsman for Laban for 14 years in order to marry the right daughter. Jacob, whose name means “he grasps the heel” (figuratively, he deceives ) was himself deceived and used by Jacob.

But in this passage of the Bible, we see Jacob returning home with his entire family and flocks in tow. Before he meets his brother and asks for forgiveness, he spends some alone time with God. We read Genesis 32, verses 22-28:

22 That night Jacob got up and took his two wives, his two maidservants and his eleven sons and crossed the ford of the Jabbok. 23 After he had sent them across the stream, he sent over all his possessions. 24 So Jacob was left alone, and a man wrestled with him till daybreak. 25 When the man saw that he could not overpower him, he touched the socket of Jacob's hip so that his hip was wrenched as he wrestled with the man. 26 Then the man said, "Let me go, for it is daybreak." But Jacob replied, "I will not let you go unless you bless me." 27 The man asked him, "What is your name?" "Jacob," he answered. 28 Then the man said, "Your name will no longer be Jacob, but Israel, [e] because you have struggled with God and with men and have overcome."

No longer was he “Jacob” the deceiver. Instead, he was now “Israel” or “he struggles with God.” And note how the encounter changed him physically as well. Jacob…errrr… Israel would walk away from this encounter with a physical reminder of God. Couldn’t an angel easily overpower a mere man? Of course he could. So why didn’t the angel do so? Was it to allow Jacob the opportunity to wrestle or flee? Fight or flight? Here was an opportunity to run away again or stand up and be the man that God wanted to use.

Does Jacob’s being given a new name have the same meaning to us that Jesus meant in Revelations 3:12 when He instructed John to write, “Him who overcomes I will make a pillar in the temple of my God. Never again will he leave it. I will write on him the name of my God and the name of the city of my God, the new Jerusalem, which is coming down out of heaven from my God; and I will also write on him my new name”? I don’t know.

I do know that God has said that whoever wants to find Him, will do so. Whomever wants to draw nearer to God will find God drawing nearer to them. He instructs us to ask for wisdom to be given it. We see those with little faith asking Him for more faith and receiving it. “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.” Matthew 7:7. It’s not that I (or we) don’t want to be touched by God. Maybe it’s that we’re afraid. Afraid that we aren’t deserving (ummm, we’re not. Only Jesus is). Afraid of what God may ask us to do. Afraid of the unknown. That’s me many times. I just keep trying to trust Him, knowing that He loves me dearly and has the best plan anyone could ever devise for my life. So, I will continue to try to listen to Him, walk closer with Him and demonstrate my love to Him daily. I will, like Jacob, try to grasp ahold of God and never, ever let go! And if He should choose to change my name to “Bubba” or “Ingrid” or even “John Jacob Jingleheimersmidt”, I’ll be blessed and honored – because He knows who I am better than I do. He knows you too. Climb into His loving arms today, curl up with His love letters in the Bible and see what He may say about who you are, you mat be surprised – but I pray not disappointed!
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Distorted

Have you ever played one of those puzzle games where the picture starts out distorted or jumbled and as it becomes clearer you try and guess what it’s supposed to be? The fun part of the game is to see who can be the first to guess the picture correctly. These are funny because the guesses can be so wildly wrong! And the picture is, at first, just a blur. Friends shouting out answers or guesses. “What is that? What is it?!!!”

Do you ever see yourself this way? Are you ever a jumbled up, distorted picture to the world around you or to yourself? Do you find yourself guessing as to who you are? And then changing your answer minutes, hours or days later when the picture becomes clearer?

My mental picture is of the colored sand inside the glass frame that you can purchase at some gift stores or at the mall. Every time you turn it over, it forms a different design. Sometimes it looks like a sunset. Other times it an ocean with waves breaking upon the shoreline. Still other times it resembles the terrain of a distant planet. We let out an audible “ohhh” and “ahhh” at the designs. But we know that they are meaningless. A mere decorative plaything. Our lives are not like that. And if our perception of who we are changes with every twist and turn and tumble that we face in this life, the “ohhh” and “ahhh” may turn out to be an “ouch” or even worse.

Do you recall the song, “What I Am” from 1988 sung by Edie Brickell and the New Bohemians? A one-hit wonder who’s other major move was marrying Paul Simon. This was a catchy little tune, but the words actually offer a glimpse of someone who doesn’t know What I Am. Read on….

“What I Am”
Edie Brickell And The New Bohemians

I'm not aware of too many things
I know what I know if you know what I mean
Philosophy is a talk on cereal box religion
Is a smile on a dog

I'm not aware of too many things
I know what I know if you know what I mean
Choke me in the shallow water before I get too deep
What I am is what I am are you what you are or what?

I'm not aware of too many things I know what I know if you know what I mean
Philosophy is a walk on slippery rocks religion
is a light in the fog

I'm not aware of too many things I know what I know if you know what I mean
Choke me in the shallow water before I get too deep
What I am is what I am are you what you are or what

Okay, who am I? Who are you? As I wrote last time, our identities can be solidly grounded or ever changing depending upon what we ground them upon. Where do our foundational beliefs about ourselves come from? Is a professional athlete still the same person when he or she retires from the sport? Is the lotto winner the same after winning the big jackpot? And am I the same person after a day in which I lost my temper and spoke rudely to my co-worker or family?

I would tend to view myself based upon my actions from the previous hours or days and would get a distorted view of the picture of who I truly am. But how can I get an undistorted view? Who knows me better than I know myself?

In Psalm 139, King David wrote a song of praise to God the Creator of the universe, of life and of David himself. Read through this psalm. Thoughtfully examine what it says about who God is, what He has done, what He knows and where He abounds.

Psalm 139:1-24 (New Living Translation)
O LORD, you have examined my heart and know everything about me. You know when I sit down or stand up. You know my every thought when far away. You chart the path ahead of me and tell me where to stop and rest. Every moment you know where I am. You know what I am going to say even before I say it, LORD. You both precede and follow me. You place your hand of blessing on my head. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too great for me to know! I can never escape from your spirit! I can never get away from your presence! If I go up to heaven, you are there; if I go down to the place of the dead, you are there. If I ride the wings of the morning, if I dwell by the farthest oceans, even there your hand will guide me, and your strength will support me.

I could ask the darkness to hide me and the light around me to become night-- but even in darkness I cannot hide from you. To you the night shines as bright as day. Darkness and light are both alike to you.

You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother's womb. Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous--and how well I know it. You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb. You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed. How precious are your thoughts about me, O God! They are innumerable! I can't even count them; they outnumber the grains of sand! And when I wake up in the morning, you are still with me!

O God, if only you would destroy the wicked! Get out of my life, you murderers! They blaspheme you; your enemies take your name in vain. O LORD, shouldn't I hate those who hate you? Shouldn't I despise those who resist you? Yes, I hate them with complete hatred, for your enemies are my enemies.

Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my thoughts. Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life.

David had surrendered himself to God, God’s plan and God’s view of who David was. It was God who said that David was to be king even while the picture of David showed him to be a lowly shepherd boy.

David sang, “You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed. How precious are your thoughts about me, O God! They are innumerable! I can't even count them; they outnumber the grains of sand!”

Wow! How precious are God’s thoughts about me. This God who never changes created me. He knows me in the innermost parts. He knows my thoughts, dreams, desires, weakness and strength. And I respond to Him by doing what? Do I sing to Him as David did acknowledging Him as knowing the true picture of who I am?

Do I know who God is so that I can then know who I am? Do I tremble in awe and respect like Isaiah who encountered God and said “1 In the year King Uzziah died, I saw the Lord. He was sitting on a lofty throne, and the train of his robe filled the Temple. 2 Hovering around him were mighty seraphim, each with six wings. With two wings they covered their faces, with two they covered their feet, and with the remaining two they flew. 3 In a great chorus they sang, "Holy, holy, holy is the LORD Almighty! The whole earth is filled with his glory!" 4 The glorious singing shook the Temple to its foundations, and the entire sanctuary was filled with smoke. 5 Then I said, "My destruction is sealed, for I am a sinful man and a member of a sinful race. Yet I have seen the King, the LORD Almighty!" (Isaiah 6:1-5)

Remember the lyrics from “Who Are You” by The Who from the last post? I don’t know if they believed in Jesus, but they sure did seem to write about Him when they sang,

I know there's a place you walked
Where love falls from the trees
My heart is like a broken cup
I only feel right on my knees

Oh God, use me, a mere broken vessel. Shape me as You desire. Teach me Your ways and Your thoughts and let me rest in Your Truth. Allow me to see the true picture of who I am and please gently shape me into who You want me to be.

seeking Him,
dr. larry
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Who Are U?

I hear this song's lyrics weekly..."Who are you? Who, who? Who, who?" For those familar with the show, it's the theme song played for the original CSI show. For those of us old enough to remember, it is also the cry of a generation as originally offered by The Who.

It can be a disconcerting question. It can be a question that has an ever changing answer in this world in which we live. "Who am I"? Sounds like the next book in the Dr. Suess line of children's books. "I am me...who are you?" So who am I? And how do I know it? What grounds my identity - what's the foundation built upon? Is it my past that makes me who I am? My experiences, trials, tribulations? The victories and defeats? I believe partly it is. Is it my heritage? My family, my roots, my lineage? Potentially. What about the influences upon me today? My job, community, friends and family? They all help to shape and mold me as well. Then there's my desires, my emotions, my dreams. They too make up part of who I am as well.

But history is only as influential as I allow it to be. My perspective on history can change, I can supress things of the past in order to create a reality that I wished were true. And the job, community, friends, emotions and dreams can all easily come and go, change and re-change.

In the early 1990's, I was a young chemist who had recently been promoted to lab manager. James Cagney said it best in the 1949 movie "White Heat", I was "on top of the world, Ma! Top of the world!"

Who I was was directly and proportionally related to what I did and how well I did it! I had a neat job, good pay, no real cares in the world!

Then I met a beautiful, young lady and fell in love. The next year we married. Who I was changed. And my motivation did as well. You see, shortly after we got married, I lost this "dream" job and was no longer "that person" anymore. I wasn't the young chemist, the lab manager. So who was I? What I did was so important to how I saw myself, that without the position, I didn't know who I was. It took awhile to work out within myself, but God is patient..and God is kind. He desired me to see who He believes that I am. We can chat about that later.

Who are you? Your identity is tied to something also. What is? Is it solid or ever changing? Let's chat about that too...

The Who wrote about it in their song. It's a cry for something more. Something better . Something different. As they sang, "there's got to be another way." And there is. For those that care, here's the lyrics:


Who are you?
Who, who, who, who?
Who are you?
Who, who, who, who?
Who are you?
Who, who, who, who?
Who are you?
Who, who, who, who?

I woke up in a Soho doorway
A policeman knew my name
He said "You can go sleep at home tonight
If you can get up and walk away"

I staggered back to the underground
And the breeze blew back my hair
I remember throwin' punches around
And preachin' from my chair

chorus:
Well, who are you? (Who are you? Who, who, who, who?)
I really wanna know (Who are you? Who, who, who, who?)
Tell me, who are you? (Who are you? Who, who, who, who?)
'Cause I really wanna know (Who are you? Who, who, who, who?)

I took the tube back out of town
Back to the Rollin' Pin
I felt a little like a dying clown
With a streak of Rin Tin Tin

I stretched back and I hiccupped
And looked back on my busy day
Eleven hours in the Tin Pan
God, there's got to be another way

Who are you?
Ooh wa ooh wa ooh wa ooh wa ...

Who are you?
Who, who, who, who?
Who are you?
Who, who, who, who?
Who are you?
Who, who, who, who?
Who are you?
Who, who, who, who?

(chorus)

I know there's a place you walked
Where love falls from the trees
My heart is like a broken cup
I only feel right on my knees

I spit out like a sewer hole
Yet still recieve your kiss
How can I measure up to anyone now
After such a love as this?

(chorus)


love, peace & joy,
dr. larry
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New Friends

Met some new friends tonight. Had an interesting time discussing life, Eminem, alleys in Tucson, salvation, worldviews, and the redeeming qualities of the movie "Legally Blonde 2."

Made me think of the following:

An Irish blessing

May the road rise up to meet you,
May the wind be always at your back,
May the sun shine warm upon your face,
And the rains fall soft upon your fields.
And, until we meet again,
May God hold you in the palm of his hand.

~ peace be with you ~
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Cotton Candy For Dinner

Do you ever have things happen in your life that make you ask God, "Why? Why do You allow such things to happen?" Maybe a young child or baby dies unexpectantly or the horrors of war or the destruction of hurricanes, tsunamis, earthquakes or other natural disasters.

"Why God, why?"

Ever sat alone with a hurting heart wondering why people sometimes act the way they do - and why does God allow them to continue?

I've asked these questions - or questions much like these before...and may ask them again. But God doesn't ever promise us that He will give us all the answers on this side of heaven. Shoot, if we could even understand all the answers...what kind of God would that make Him if we could understand and comprehend everything that He has done?

In the Bible, God does tell us some things like,

* Ashes to ashes, dust to dust. Our frail human bodies, unlike our spirit, are only temporal. They are wearing out...wearing out daily...and soon will return to the substance that God used to create them.

All your life you will sweat to produce food, until your dying day. Then you will return to the ground from which you came. For you were made from dust, and to the dust you will return. (Genesis 3:19, NLT)

* We seek to gain happiness, to grasp hold of it on this earth is like trying to grasp the wisp of smoke. We try in vain, running to and fro', expending our time, money and energy to taste joy and peace, meaning in our lives and satisfaction. But we are told that this is an impossibility here.

2 "Everything is meaningless," says the Teacher, "utterly meaningless!" 3 What do people get for all their hard work? 4 Generations come and go, but nothing really changes. 5 The sun rises and sets and hurries around to rise again. 6 The wind blows south and north, here and there, twisting back and forth, getting nowhere. 7 The rivers run into the sea, but the sea is never full. Then the water returns again to the rivers and flows again to the sea. 8 Everything is so weary and tiresome! No matter how much we see, we are never satisfied. No matter how much we hear, we are not content. 9 History merely repeats itself. It has all been done before. Nothing under the sun is truly new. 10 What can you point to that is new? How do you know it didn't already exist long ago? 11 We don't remember what happened in those former times. And in future generations, no one will remember what we are doing now. (Ecclesiastes 1:2-11, NIV)

* We try to "dig in" and stake our claim on this planet when it isn't our home. It's a precursor to what is to come and we are "aliens" here.

11 Dear friends, I urge you, as aliens and strangers in the world, to abstain from sinful desires, which war against your soul. 12 Live such good lives among the pagans that, though they accuse you of doing wrong, they may see your good deeds and glorify God on the day he visits us. (1 Peter 2:11-12, NIV)

13 All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance. And they admitted that they were aliens and strangers on earth. 14 People who say such things show that they are looking for a country of their own. (Hebrews 11:13-14, NIV)

* We seek to "understand" the things around us and inside us. We devote schools of thought to the pursuit of this knowledge. If only we can master physics and chemistry, philosophy and reason - then we could become like God Himself! But we've seen it tried before, and the failure that resulted. Can we not accept that there are things that we just cannot understand yet?

2 The woman said to the serpent, "We may eat fruit from the trees in the garden, 3 but God did say, 'You must not eat fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden, and you must not touch it, or you will die.' " 4 "You will not surely die," the serpent said to the woman. 5 "For God knows that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil." 6 When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was good for food and pleasing to the eye, and also desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it. She also gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it. 7 Then the eyes of both of them were opened, and they realized they were naked; so they sewed fig leaves together and made coverings for themselves. (Genesis 3:2-7, NIV)

1 Now the whole world had one language and a common speech. 2 As men moved eastward, [a] they found a plain in Shinar [b] and settled there. 3 They said to each other, "Come, let's make bricks and bake them thoroughly." They used brick instead of stone, and tar for mortar. 4 Then they said, "Come, let us build ourselves a city, with a tower that reaches to the heavens, so that we may make a name for ourselves and not be scattered over the face of the whole earth." 5 But the LORD came down to see the city and the tower that the men were building. 6 The LORD said, "If as one people speaking the same language they have begun to do this, then nothing they plan to do will be impossible for them. 7 Come, let us go down and confuse their language so they will not understand each other." 8 So the LORD scattered them from there over all the earth, and they stopped building the city. 9 That is why it was called Babel [c] —because there the LORD confused the language of the whole world. From there the LORD scattered them over the face of the whole earth. (Genesis 11:1-9, NIV)

11 It's like this: When I was a child, I spoke and thought and reasoned as a child does. But when I grew up, I put away childish things. 12 Now we see things imperfectly as in a poor mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity.[a] All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God knows me now. (1 Corinthians 13:11-12, NLT)

* God wants what is best for us. He provides for us, even when we do not see or realize it.

9 "So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 10 For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. 11 "Which of you fathers, if your son asks for a fish, will give him a snake instead? 12 Or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? 13 If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!" (Luke 11:9-12, NIV)

25 "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? (Matthew 6:25-27, NIV)

* God has plans for us that we don't know even realize. His plans will be accomplished...no matter what, even if we resist Him and He works through others, His plans will be fulfilled.

11 For I know the plans I have for you," says the LORD. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. (Jeremiah 29:11, NLT)

9 "Remember the former things long past, For I am God, and there is no other; I am God, and there is no one like Me, 10 Declaring the end from the beginning, And from ancient times things which have not been done, Saying, 'My purpose will be established, And I will accomplish all My good pleasure'; 11 Calling a bird of prey from the east, The man of My purpose from a far country Truly I have spoken; truly I will bring it to pass. I have planned it, surely I will do it. (Isaiah 40:9-11, NASB)

It's kinda like this: do you ever remember a time as a young child when you went to the state fair or the movies or to your favorite aunt's home without your parents? Something along those lines. And you were able to have the big bucket of popcorn and a drink and red vines? Or maybe you got to eat all the ice cream you could handle plus a root beer float? Or was it when you had cotton candy for dinner and then rode all the rides one after another?

Maybe this sounds familiar to you, maybe your experience was something altogether different. Point is, our parents told us not to eat too much popcorn and candy, or have only ice cream or cotton candy for it would "spoil" our dinner. "Why," we exclaimed, "it's so yummy!" They may have tried to explain it to us, but as children we didn't understand. It's the same reason my 8-year old son still eats the yummy food first and saves his veggies for last...in hopes that he'll get full and we won't make him eat them. He is to young to understand what we continue to tell him - you must eat the veggies for your body's own welfare, to be healthy!

But we're selfish and vain and prideful. We want what we want when we want it! And that's usually right now dammit! So we stuffed ourselves and giggled with glee as we did it...until it started hurting that is. Until it was fun anymore and we cried out in pain for our mommy or daddy to make it all better. "Why?!! Why does it hurt so much," we cried. And then they held us and gently patted us on the back. They knew what we did not - this too shall pass.

Many things about God are not beyond our comprehension. This universe and yes, even ourselves, God knows and understands but we cannot understand them yet. No more than my hamster can understand a game of chess...oh, he knows what the pieces are called, but he just can't grasp the intricacies of the game! :-)

And so, we cry and mourn when a baby is lost to us or others. We think of all that might have been...understandably so. And we also question God: why, oh God did you take away my sweet cotton candy before I had enjoyed it all? And we don't understand when He replies, "It was for the best."

~ He loves you ~
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